Sunday blues

What a difference four days can make. I wrote my last post in Wednesday 24th... It's now the 28th and I have struggled to be myself.

I'm reminded of one of my favourite songs at the moment. I mentioned it briefly in my last post... Please take time to listen to it... The words are perfect. 

Hillsong- oceans(where feet may fail)

He never fails so why would He stop now?

Prayer...

I am so passionate about prayer and would encourage anyone to continue in their prayer life. I love praying... I get to thank, wonder, be still, listen, rant, cry... You name it! 

I wanted to write this post to actually put my hand up and say- earlier I had a break down...and not my car! 

Emotionally could not cope. 

Looking from the outset, I probably acted like a toddler having a tantrum. I cried, screamed, threw and prayed. 

I do think its okay for me to be like this- not all the time, no. But now and again I'm allowed to have a little break down... Maybe I shouldn't have them to the extent that they are, but I need to release emotions. 

What I am trying to say is that, I am not perfect. I struggle with a lot of things, and even when God confirms a specific calling or gift when I am feeling like that, it's even harder. I question why would He? To give me a glimpse of light? Maybe. So he kept his promise? Maybe. A reminder that just because I am feeling like this doesn't make me less of a Christian? Yes! 

Pray.

C x 

It's been a while

I would say that my body clock woke me up at a ridiculous time this morning- not to mention on my day off, but actually, God did. I have woken up completely refreshed and feel I've been given 400mg of joy! 

These past few months, lets just say-its been a challenge. Emotions have been high and if I'm completely honest, I've struggled. 

Today I am feeling amazingly blessed, even tho I lack a quantity of friends... But actually, the quality of the friends I have, is very rare. So I am thankful.

God has been so giving in His grace, mercy and unfailing love- no shocker there! 

My journaling journey restarts today.... Lets do this!

'It is better to be hated for who you are, rather than loved for who you are not' -Andre Gide.

Just to show you how cute I was when younger.....

procrastination

Right now, I should be finishing my essays that are due in 36 hours... but instead, I am trying to fill time and thought I'd blog...why not?!

I thought I'd share a few pictures about my last few weeks and who I've been able to share those memories with.

This is my little friend AJ. You can follow his(Kate's) blog here k8erickson.blogspot.co.uk

These two beauties are my sisters.

This is how I spent my bank holiday. A good breckie, a walk and fun in the park with friends.

And this is just some family fun.

 Precious times.

I love these girls SO much.

C x

Finding rest

1st May 2013

After a couple of rough days, God made it clear that I needed some time with Him, to sit, talk&listen. I knew that it needed to be somewhere where my thoughts would be in the distance, so I decided it needed to be a beach. Preferably on the cliff tops over looking the sea and be able to take in the beauty of creation.

I chose Rest Bay, why? 
Because it is the one place which I love, and the name kind of gives it away, a restful place.

I sat on a bench on the cliff tops, admiring the view. 

I noticed something in the sand, footprints. I have been so caught up in feeling alone, that I have pushed God aside and let my feelings take over. 

The footprints in the sand, a poem I am familiar with, but I could see physical footprints. Sometimes we do need an actual resemblance of something for it to sink in.

God told me "I will never leave you, I am with you always" my mind immediately went to the two verses in scripture.

"Think about how many 'fear not for I am with you' verses are in the bible. 

God assures us He wont abandon us".

During this reflective time, I have been reminded that even when I feel alone, and friends may not be around, God is there, He will never leave me. He chooses to meet me daily. In scripture, James tell us that Gods word is a mirror, it gives us a better view of ourselves, of God, and others.

My bible means a lot to me, but being challenged on just picking it up once a day or maybe once every two days, simply is not enough.

After all, who am I to push my Creator aside.

C x

April....

April has been the month of good news.....

Friends are having babies, birthdays, uni presentations passed, friendships remade, finally good weather, fellowship with Bethesda, oh and did I mention my best friend is engaged?!?!!!!!!!!!!

You belong with me in my sweet heart

I am totally obsessed with the song by The Lumineers - Ho Hey! What a great song!
One of the guys from church plays it all the time...and at first, yes, it was annoying....but I actually have grown to love it! Have a listen....

Yesterday, I was reminded about How much God loves me, and will never let my foot slip because He holds me! Psalm 121 - read it!!! 
This song (kind of) compliments the verse......I do believe that God belongs in my heart..and I am in His.... 

"All I am is yours"

C x

You've got a friend in me!

You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
When the road looks rough ahead
And you're miles and miles
From your nice warm bed
You just remember what your old pal said
Boy, you've got a friend in me
Yeah, you've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
If you've got troubles,I've got 'em too
There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you
We stick together and can see it through
Cause you've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me

Disney's Toy Story - You've got a friend in me

This week has been hard going, in fact it's made a triplet in my last month! I love the good days, but sometimes want to bad days to be a little bit brighter.

I've been challenged by so many things this week, unbelievably has changed certain things that I do in my daily life and my daily walk with Jesus. 

I miss certain people, I'd love to have more time for people, give more, pray more, love more, be selfless, give hugs more...

One thing that has struck me today.... I keep focusing on being loved, by people....and I've been so consumed with what people think of me, acceptance and how I act around people, that I've forgotten WHO I am loved by.

I am loved by friends. YES.

I am loved by family. YES.

I am loved by my church. YES.

..............and by who? GOD!!

If any of this post will encourage you, I really want to encourage you from the bottom of my heart to remember, that you too, are loved by an unchanging God, who cares so much, that He gave us Jesus.

Tomorrow is another day...yes! Another chance to try harder with our relationship with God! How exciting is that!!!! 

Religion says DO.

Jesus says DONE.     -  Jefferson Bethke

If you get a spare few minutes, check out this video - VERY encouraging!

Why did I copy 'You've got a friend in me?' ...

Because amongst all my wants and desires... I've been given amazing friends. Tonight, Bethany and I cooked fajitas mmmmmmmmmmm, attempted to watch Toy Story 2, and have a catch up. I sometimes get disheartened by the lack of true friendships in my life - but I am very grateful for the ones I have, because they actually make up for the loss in the others! Thankful!

Bethany has a blog too... check it out! It's under blogs I follow!

C x